Friday, November 20, 2009

happy weekend!

*****
i live for the weekends these days.
so excited to spend it lounging around with jeremy wilson.
so mad i missed regina when she was in salt lake.

oh well. next time.
until then, enjoy this with me.

xo
*****

Thursday, November 19, 2009



had to save this somewhere...why isn't this on itunes?
it's just lovely.

thanks meg.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

speaking of the holidays.



thankful for:
my family. my Savior. my health. my family's health.


what are you thankful for?

3 months. ohh my.


that's 1/4 of a year.

holy smokes, we're on a roll!!!



finals (1 for me, 4 for jeremy) are right around the corner.

finals =holidays

and holidays = family time

and christmas music

and holiday treats

and twinkle lights

and apple cider

and

and

...

so. excited.

p.s.- j. peri got toilet papered. something

she's always wanted...wait. what?

p.p.s.- olivia rae is giving away a cake stand to

1 lucky winner. enter. enter now!

why are you still here?

go!

photos via elise via our wedding

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Love
When love beckons to you follow him,
Though his ways are hard and steep.
And when his wings enfold you yield to him,
Though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you.
And when he speaks to you believe in him,
Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste the garden.
For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is for your growth so is he for your pruning.
Even as he ascends to your height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun,
So shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the earth.
Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself.
He threshes you to make you naked.
He sifts you to free you from your husks.
He grinds you to whiteness.
He kneads you until you are pliant;
And then he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread for God's sacred feast.
All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of Life's heart.
But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's pleasure,
Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and pass out of love's threshing-floor,
Into the seasonless world where you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all of your tears.
Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
Love possesses not nor would it be possessed;
For love is sufficient unto love.
When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but rather, I am in the heart of God."
And think not you can direct the course of love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.
Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.
But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be your desires:
To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.
To know the pain of too much tenderness.
To be wounded by your own understanding of love;
And to bleed willingly and joyfully.
To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;
To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;
To return home at eventide with gratitude;
And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips.


-Khalil Gibran



humanities 101, chapter 8, poetry--consider me inspired.
photo via kid_curry

Thursday, November 12, 2009

serious thoughts. quiet please.


last week, while minding my own business, i was struck with an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for those friends (and sometimes strangers) that have come in and have gone quickly out of my life
for whatever reason.
whether it lasted 3 days or 3 months, those friendships have helped me to figure out
who the heck i am.

thank you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you and...
...
today, i am more determind than ever to make every relationship
a special one.
one that will be thought of years from now with a smile.


happy thursday
(my favorite day of the week)

p.s.- so excited for christmas. already.
photo via sabino

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

"debits and credits" a painting by estee ...wilson

being married is great.
i get to hang out with jeremy wilson ALL the time.
sometimes he becomes the subject of art projects for humanities 101.
(abstract art projects, of course.)
see?


alright... alriiiiiight!
i know it's not the greatest thing you've ever laid eyes on...
but it's my first painting.
give me a break.



xoxo

{excuse my scanner for cutting off my masterpiece.
it can only handle so much awesomeness at one time.}

Monday, October 19, 2009

so excited for this...

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

what?

a) twitter? really?
{yep}
{what? i know everyone is anxious to know what i'm doing 24/7...}
{we'll see.}
b) noah if officially #1 on the golf team.
{and, unofficially, the most attractive.}
{i'm just saying.}
c) livvy loo is having a giveaway. don't you miss it!
xoxo
e
oh, and p.s.-
if any one can top the excitement caused by this news, please oh please fill me in.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

elise l.



remember that one time when jeremy wilson and i got married?
no?
well gosh, let me remind you...





{this is mo. i love him. don't you love him? mo is a cowboy, and this cowboy is my grandpa.}





{my sweet sweet family + my sweet sweet jeremy wilson}




these are just a few of the la la lovely photos taken
by the MOST adorable character i have ever met.
she was a HIT with my entire family.
we loved her.
every photo she took was perfect.
the end.
{we'll, at least until the next time i remind you about the time we were married.}
p.s.- he's doing well, it hasn't been able
to keep one member of the cook family
down. this is all thanks, of course,
to our father in heaven.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Monday, September 28, 2009

being married has been lonely and lovely. mostly lovely.



happiness is:
quietly sitting with jeremy wilson while he does his homework/listens to andrea bocelli on his laptop. every now and then he'll belt out a little italian for me.





i love this boy.

determind to be happy

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

- Martha Washington

Friday, September 25, 2009

cookies and coke.

no.
stop it.
i. am. soooo. sick. of. you.
........
i don't even like you.
i consume you out of boredom.
GO AWAY.
heck,
i may even pick up cross stitcing to kick this horrible habit i have
of eating when i'm:
bored
tired
lazy
sad
curious
angry
happy
spacy
.....
do you seeee?
i have a PROBLEM
help!
op! p.s.- have i told you before that i love this?
i do!!!
isn't she adorable?
the way she dances around?
oh gosh.
it's lovely.
watch it!
happy friday!

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

happy today.

today i sat at the front of mountain land design and oooed and ahhhed over beautiful crafts
that even i can make!!!
wonderful!
have you been here?
or visited martha lately?
seriously.
i am currently on a crafting high...in fact, if i wasn't at work from 830-5
i am POSITIVE i'd be home crafting.
right now.


. . . . . . . . . . . . . .


in other news,

i called chloe last night to see what was happening on the home front.

(because she's the only one i can trust to give me the DL, of course.)

she informed me that she had started cello lessons

and then

i was given a private concert over the phone.

twinkle twinkle little star...

she's a prodigy, i tell you!!!

oh, i love her. and j. peri.

gosh.

sisters are the greatest.

happy wednesday!!



Tuesday, September 22, 2009

let's take a break.

all i want is to go.
you can decide
who we see
what we eat
and where we stay.
how about it???


{santorini.}

{nice.}

{machu picchu.}



Sunday, September 13, 2009

and then we went to mexico...

because we left our camera in the states, jeremy wilson and i decided that it would be best to go disposable...for the sake of the memories, you know?

gosh. do you remember the last time you used a disposable camera? i think i was probably 14. at church camp...geeze louise. in half of the photos, someone is missing {either me or jeremy...} and the other half are covered up by my little finger.

i don't remember it being that difficult to look through the lens and click....oops.


well, at least we have proof that we were in cancun...
that we loved it. and we love each other.


the BEST disposables of the trip.................



{there was no alcohol consumed before or after this photo was taken}






{a series of photos from jeremy's big win. }
{of course, when your opponents for the cartoon theme song trivia game are a five year old girl and an old mexican man...you've pretty much got it in the bag......}


welp, there you have it.
it went by much too quickly.
now, jeremy's busy reading about accounting, and i am "busy" with my online class and working.
{answering phones and passing out candy}
{until next semester, when i will return as a full time cougar. rawr.}

we are filling our free time with serious badminton tournaments and
attempting to decorate our never ending walls.

xoxo

Sunday, September 6, 2009

my heart is full full FULL


{via fffound}

i love sunday.
it is a full day with jeremy wilson.
without work, without school, without obligations or plans.
my favorite sunday is always the first sunday of the month.
how can i not help but be grateful when i hear the testimonies of those i love and respect?
they know it's true.
they love the Lord.
they cherish their families.
they are overcoming trials
and trying to be better.
every testimony gives me a boost.
of faith
of hope
of happiness.
it will all work out.
.........................................
i know it's true.
i love the Lord.
i adore my family.
i am understanding our trials.
and i am trying to be better.
it will all work out.



Tuesday, September 1, 2009

W is for wilson

that's right folks.

m. estelle got hitched.

i am so happy and so comfortable with this new adventure. the wedding was LOVELY
--i will prove it with photos soon--

until then, please enjoy this gem taken by our adorable photographer elise

{see a few more here.}




jeremy wilson and i are slowly making this over sized apartment look like home.
if you've got any decorating ideas, please send them my way...also...recipes. yes. jeremy wilson would appreciate that.


anyway, i'm back.
back to this little blog.
beaucoup d'amour pour vous

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

LOVEly.





aren't they lovely?
yes. yes they are.
20 plus years later and they're STILL good looking
no trial or illness is going to keep the tanner-cook clan from lookin good.
{i would suggest a wink face {here} but i'm 100% serious, sorry}
see you at the reception!
{2.5 weeks, people}

{thank you for finding these treasures mom.}

Monday, August 3, 2009

so you're looking for a capucine original?

click the link on the side bar!
and don't forget there are also magnets and buttons!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

je vous prƩsente, Capucine

alright, so i did a little research on that adorable fille {girl} below.
watch this vid.
i'm off to find out how i can get my hands on one of these tee's...

Capucine for Edurelief in Mongolia from Capucha on Vimeo.


Too much candy from Capucha on Vimeo.


{want more? look here.}

bonne nuit mes amies.

alright mom, i'll work on my french

reason #34235 why i should consider a french minor: teach the little wilson babies (you know, the ones who will not make their big debut until long after we've voted on a new president) to talk like this:



{thanks molly!}

Friday, July 31, 2009

oops.sorry.


i just pushed the checkout button.
sorry jeremy, i hope that someday you can love it as much as i do.

thank you U.O.
now stop it.
stop sending me e-mails and catalogs.
i'm sick of this.
(i'm lying i'm lying. don't stop.)

p.s.- when you decided to love it, can please staple this little beauty to the wall?
maybe?
okay....just think about it.




Thursday, July 30, 2009

the happy list



ten things that make me terribly happy
:
  1. fresh flowers in the kitchen
  2. a forever family
  3. reading what has been highlighted in a used textbook
  4. the smell of rain on hot pavement
  5. phone calls from far away
  6. window seats
  7. giggles that turn into hiccups
  8. closing my eyes in a loud restaurant
  9. listening to the symphony warm up
  10. shaky legs from a long run
{also seen here}

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

a birthday




the little ladies surprised me with their gourmet cupcakes {avec candles} and a happy birthday song when i came to visit them on my lunch break!
woah! cool!




{thanks lo, thanks j}


after work, we went over to the pool for a swim...
{112 degree weather + a pool warmed by the sun = a quick 30 minute visit to the pool...}



peri {with mom's secret help} flipped the bill for a lovely dinner at oregano's...mmm...






gracias amigas!




Tuesday, July 28, 2009

20.twenty.20.twenty.

nope. don't feel any different. not at all.

how did i spend my birthday?
did i host a rave? {because the parents are away???}
did i sleep in?
did i lounge?
did i hit the mall?

no no no no...no.

i decided that waking up at 5:30am, yogaing with j. peri, grocery shopping, and working a full day at the office was the "adult" thing to do. and seeing as i left my teens today, it was only appropriate.

really though.
this birthday was one of the best. ever. a surprise lunch, and a dress up dinner with my sisters was the boost i needed to shoot me through the next couple of weeks.
{photos to follow}

we are hopeful and happy at the cook home, waiting for the rest of the family to return.






Monday, July 27, 2009

i couldn't let this stay hidden on the camera...

these girls have talked me into a slumber party every night since mom's been gone.
{how could i say no?}
last night, i got up to let the dogs out
and on my way back to bed i ran into chloe's hot pink camera.
3 videos. all in a row. so perfect. i had to steal them...

i laughed and laughed until a sleepy peri asked "what's funny"
oops.
everyone was asleep, and i was trying not to pee my pants.
these girls are out of control funny.
i am so grateful for them and happy to have all this time to spend with them.


please take note of:
*the press on nails
*peri's skills with the video camera
*chloe's ability to follow that camera
*their lovely room


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

july 21st.

mamacita had a birthday. yep. yesterday.



kit spent her birthday on an airplane headed to houston to take care of sheldon.
{one more week in texas before he will come home to spend lots and lots of time with us here in the desert.}
this mama is the most selfless one i know. she packed up her oils and her books and was determined to make him more comfortable than he was.
{sitting in a hospital room alone is not fun, you know. }
we, back at the cook home, are missing both of our parents.

xoxoxoxoxoxo
e

sister, sister

do you know i have a sister? two, in fact. both are quite lovely. both are creative and hilarious.
both make me feel oh so loved and happy to be who i am.




j.peri has made it big in the blogging world--apparently her love for all things beautiful can be picked up in her sweet posts...

you can spot her lovely shout outs over on yellow brick and this. very. moment.

{thank yous to laura, megan, and christina for your sweet notes sent peri's way.}


--to my lo lo and j--
i will miss you more than i miss my cabbage patch doll when i run off with mr. wilson this fall.




Saturday, July 11, 2009

raise your hand if you love your grandparents...

{consider my hand raised...}


aren't they a beautiful pair?
(this is where i got my curls...)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

love and marriage, love and marriage

{are you watching that counter? can you believe how fast it's ticking?}


mesa arizona temple
via: fliker
jeremy wilson and i are
getting hitched in the salt lake city
temple-see side bar for visual

pourquoi?
regardez ici...



Sunday, July 5, 2009

summertime.

dear summer, i love you.
tomorrow marks the first day of my summer.
no more 7am english class.
you can bet i'll be spending more time doing summery things like sitting by the pool, making trips to the library (which is conveniently located en face de la rue de ma maison), and discovering the joys of yoga with my sisters every morning at 8am sharp.
i have good feelings about july, after all, it is my birthday month....

happy summertime!


{just a little candid from the engagements.}

Monday, June 29, 2009

i love love loooooove, LOVE

oh dear, getting married makes one rather nutty. (okay, maybe i was already a little nutty...)
but watch this. watch this and just try not to get all gitty and giggly. i dare you.



they.are.so.in.love.
image via: broke-ass bride


. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

some days i really think i am ready to pack up my things and walk away from everything that seems so sad.
yep.
everything that is frustrating, complicated, stressful...
anything that hurts me, or that hurts those people i love.
some days i am really curious who thought that we could handle all of this sticky stuff.
it is not pleasant.
nope.
not fun.
it makes us upset.
it hurts our hearts
--both literally and figuratively--
and i often wonder how long it will be until we are looking back on this and smiling...thinking about how much we have learned, and saying that we would not trade the experience for anything.
right now, i am not thinking that, and i definitely would not say that to anyone.

but late at night, before i crawl into bed, i realize who thinks we can do it.
late at night, everything i have been blessed with is illuminated
and suddenly...
it is easier to smile and laugh and dance around with 2 cute little ladies
and crack jokes with the boy i share a bathroom with.
and then planning a wedding seems exciting.
school does not seem pointless.
polishing my toenails does not seem like a waste of time.
i forgive.
i forget.
i try harder.
and i love more.
there. i am happy.
even with the mess i find myself in.
because i know where i'm headed and that i'm not alone.

e


"Happiness cannot be traveled to,
owned, earned, worn or consumed.
Happiness is the spiritual experience of
living every moment with love,
grace and gratitude."
:Denis Waitley



Sunday, June 28, 2009

one more time with feeling





hold on
one more time with feeling
try it again, breathing's just a rhythm
say it in your mind, until you know that the words are right
this is why we fight

thanks regina

Saturday, June 27, 2009

to michael, with love

what is a trip to san fran without street dancers and michael jackson?



:san fransico, summer 2008:


{so michael was pretty freaky...but don't tell me you don't toe tap when you hear this song...}

Monday, June 22, 2009

oh regina.


the new cd! it's out today! {june 23rd}

kelly marie neilson


ahhhh, kelly marie.
you are one of my very best friends.
i love you.
i can't believe you're married {MARRIED!} and here i am, following right behind with mr. wilson.
geez louise.
thank you thank you for all of your help.
xoxoxo



Sunday, June 21, 2009

happy fathers day.


happy father's day dad! you are amazing.
xo
e

Friday, June 19, 2009

i love you j. crew

wednesday-
me: "on the way home from work i pictured the perfect shoe: a minty blue suede pump."
mom: "where are you going to find that?"
today-
BAM.
i found you.
and i love you.



you will look perfect with my ruffles.

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

dear wedding planning fairy...

we've got a lot to do...

{thank you lauren}




anyone know where i can find these little beauties? wholesale?


so many beautiful things, so little time...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I must learn to love the fool in me--the one who feels too much, talks too much, takes too many chances, wins sometimes and loses often, lacks self-control, loves and hates, hurts and gets hurt, promises and breaks promises, laughs and cries. It alone protects me against that utterly self-controlled, masterful tyrant whom I also harbor and who would rob me of human aliveness, humility, and dignity but for my fool.

Theodore I. Rubin, MD

{found over here. }

Saturday, June 6, 2009

oh al, you make me so happy



happy weekend.
{starting monday there are 3.5 more weeks of english 102 and 11 weeks until j+e. (oh my)}
p.s.- read/listen to this and this.
watch this.
think about this.
xo
e

buy me.

do you love love love forever 21?
yes. good. perfect.
that means you might be interested in purchasing this little beauty:



my $36 store credit.
i don't need it.
and, because i am in love with jeremy wilson, i can no longer afford to spend money here and there with out a care.
i must sell this bad boy.


contact me if you are interested...

cook.estee{at}gmail{dot}com

fictionist



the fictionist cd has been in my car for a week now. (mostly because i am forgetful, and cannot seem to remember to grab another one) but, i do not mind listening to it over and over again. it's soooo good. so good.
check them out.
fictionist.com

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

dear summer oh nine,

at 7:55 am I was sitting in English 102 at the MCC Red Mountain Campus next to my new friend (who likes girls) and my neighbor to the right who has "f*** yeah" tatooed on her calf. this is where i can be found monday through thursday until the second of july.

oh dear.

on a lighter note, i love my curls. i love them. NO blow drying/ flat ironing = goodbye (less)sweaty/(less)uncomfortable mornings.
(i'm living in an oven.)


p.s.- j. and i are getting hitched in 2.5 months. what in the world?

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

summertime playlists = beirut

Thursday, May 28, 2009

woah.

oh my. oh my.
look at him go!



this girl's little brother.
p.s.- the hair flips get me every time.

Monday, May 25, 2009

can this count as a registry???

jeremy and i might need to add a few more things to that registry...

{get a better look here or here}
oh! and maybe a couple of these

hey, i'm just sayin'...

Sunday, May 24, 2009

check. it. out.



people. j. peri is just hilarious. really though. check it out.
(and send some love her way, she's had TWO mini-operations on her big toe in the past month! woah!)

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

GREAT.

just lovely. if i lived in florida, these two would be at my weddin'.

"hopelessly in love with life"

peep their blog, here.

Meet the Brockintons from ashley brockinton on Vimeo.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

je l'adore



{vraiment superbe le piano, et la voix avec c'est... magnifique}

Sunday, May 17, 2009

be of good cheer


It would be easy to become discouraged and cynical about the future—or even fearful of what might come—if we allowed ourselves to dwell only on that which is wrong in the world and in our lives. Today, however, I’d like us to turn our thoughts and our attitudes away from the troubles around us and to focus instead on our blessings as members of the Church. The Apostle Paul declared, “God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.”
______________________________________

From the holy scriptures we read, “Behold, the righteous, the saints of the Holy One of Israel, they who have believed in [Him], they who have endured the crosses of the world, … they shall inherit the kingdom of God, … and their joy shall be full forever.”

I testify to you that our promised blessings are beyond measure. Though the storm clouds may gather, though the rains may pour down upon us, our knowledge of the gospel and our love of our Heavenly Father and of our Savior will comfort and sustain us and bring joy to our hearts as we walk uprightly and keep the commandments. There will be nothing in this world that can defeat us.

My beloved brothers and sisters, fear not. Be of good cheer. The future is as bright as your faith.

-president thomas s. monson, general conference april 2009

Friday, May 15, 2009

please tell me where i can find this?

being home with the family in arizona has been lovely. really, it has. despite the fact that i am still looking for a job, it's hotter than hell (no really, it is), and i am tempted to sleep in until lunch, i am having a wonderful time.
i have caught up on some reading, gone a full day of eating by the food pyramid, and i hear hilarious stories about what life's like for a 4th grader, 7th grader, and 12th grader.
cool, huh?

anyway, as i sat home on this friday night watching a movie with my parents
(because even the 9 year old was out and about) i was perfectly content.
3 months from now i will be hanging out non stop with mr. wilson and it's nice to have some one on two time with the parentals.
(even if it's watching a movie. in the dark. without speaking a word to one another.)

what i'm getting at is this: it's the simple things in life that make us happy, eh? (who cares if i don't have a job? if i'm eating more calories than i burn, or if my stuff from provo is still in boxes???) the sound of music is one of those things. so, you can imagine my reaction when i found this:



please tell me where i can find the people who put this together. i would pay a pretty penny to run into this flash mob.


{happy summer. go get a tan.}

Saturday, May 9, 2009

k.i.t.

happy mothers day to the lady who:

*wakes up at 4:30am to work out
*sprinkles smelly (in a good way) oils on anyone will a cold, flu, or sprained ankle...
*suggests we walk home (for the health of it) (1+ miles?) to "cool off" after sitting in a stuffy program (in 90 degree weather) (at 8pm)

*buys solar ovens, cans chocolate and hot tamales, and makes 72 hour kit backpacks so that we'll all be VERY comfortable in a time of need.
*puts that solar oven to good use by baking banana bread and chicken pot pie in the backyard.

*chats with anyone and everyone -- making friends wherever she goes.
and
*is always coming up with GREAT ideas.

happy mothers day, mom!!! thank you for taking care of everyone. i love love love you.


xoxoxoxo
e

Friday, May 8, 2009

counting down

i'm about ready to construct one of these,



i'll string it all over this house and celebrate every time i tear a link from the chain.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

summer 2009



devaun is in europe,

kelly is married,

...with kristin and i headed in that direction...


summer 2009 is really going to be full of the adventure we planned 2 years ago in my basement...

lovely.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

see ya real soon

welp.
i dropped you off at the airport.
it was so sad.
so sad, that i had to listen to HSM on chloe's ipod all the way home in hopes that i would forget how sad i was.
it didn't work.
so i ate noah's snickers bar.
that didn't help either.
i miss you, and it's only been an hour.
this is going to be a long long summer, jeremy wilson.
but 4 months from now, you will be stuck with me for life and longer.
i love you.




the end.

Friday, May 1, 2009

ode to rachelle



rachelle rae
(not to be confused with rachel ray, the cook...or chef..(who now has a line of bed sheets, i hear? what is the world coming to?))
is one of my very best friends.
i have loved this girl from the moment she entered this beautiful world.
we have more sweet memories together than little debbie has with a ho ho.
____________________________________________________

this lady can sing, dance, get crafty, crack hilarious jokes AND her eye brows/hair/complexion are/is AMAZING!
i'm serious.

she's the best.
anyone would be lucky, fortunate, BLESSED to be considered her pal and i am soooooooo happy to say that i am!

i love you woman!




oh. p.s.- is it just me or,

do these two look alike? ...



*alright, so i may have taken a few or all of these photos from your fb. sue me.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

what a champ



have i told you lately that i think you're great?
and looking good, too?

well i do.
and you are.



Thursday, April 23, 2009

a photo essay, by estee cook

can you believe that i am moving out of single housing for...forever!?!
(well...let's cross our fingers...)
i am BEYOND excited to kick the girls to the curb. remember this!?
(no offense. but really, living with hormonal females ---myself included...--- has given me more stress related skin problems than brigham young!!!)
i'm off to greener pastures: married housing!
[insert heavenly angels singing here]
okay, so it might not be that amazing, but i am ready for the new adventure!

before all of that can happen though, i have to get rid of/pack up all of my stuff/junk i've acquired over the past 2 years here in provo.
i am happy to report that i was able to throw away/D.I. a lot of it, but i was still left with a delema...
how to pack so that i can fit 4 bodies, my junk AND their bags into the element!?
well, it was difficult...but once i jump that hurtle, there was another one waiting...a very very steep hurtle.

the stairs.










{mind you, that's without anyone elses baggage...oops}


{where do i put this?}


Sunday, April 19, 2009

make up your mind to be happy...

Make up your mind to be happy—even when you don’t have money, even when you don’t have a clear complexion, even when you don’t have the Nobel Prize. Some of the happiest people I know have none of these things the world insists are necessary for satisfaction and joy. Why are they happy? I suppose it is because they don’t listen very well. Or they listen too well—to the things their hearts tell them. They glory in the beauty of the earth. They glory in the rivers and the canyons and the call of the meadowlark. They glory in the love of their families, the stumbling steps of a toddler, the wise and tender smile of the elderly. They glory in honest labor. They glory in the scriptures. They glory in the presence of the Holy Ghost. One thing I know for certain: the time we have here goes by far too quickly. Don’t waste any more time sitting on the bench watching life pass you by.
elder joseph b. wirthlin

Saturday, April 18, 2009

ooooooo, ahhhhhh

sometimes it's fine to act like your ten years old.
sometimes you need to distract yourself from a mountain of material that should be studied, clothes that need to be packed, and an apartment that needs to be found.
sometimes i substitute musical games online for the piano practice i am missing.

{this} is just wonderful.
...it stole 30 minutes of my time. whoopsie.

one more final, and i will have completed my fourth semester at brigham young's university.
i'll be home soon!



i'm sorry, nylon. i love love loved this add, but i had to do a little editing.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

you make me ell oh ell

response to peri's birthday message:

"lets get this strait okay?

i can do millions of diffrent things with my hair that u can NOT do and i am the prettyest of the cook family AND i make u laugh harder then anybody else in the whole world

now that we got it strait i should see a post by tomorw evening about how im the prettiest and that i am so funny that i make u cry!




ok well bye love u


and just to let u know this is from chloe"


love:

chloe rose,
you. are. a hoot.
i love you.
you ARE the prettyest of the cook family!

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY.

hello j. peri.
13 years ago today, YOU were born. and boy were you adorable.

(the most adorable of the cook children...but don't tell anyone i said that...)

exhibit a) ...and b)



you are always around and up for an adventure.
you can dance.
you can sing.
you could probably do my homework.
you can do things to your hair that i only dream of doing to mine.
you make us laugh.
you pinch your pennies.
and
you remind all of us to be a little bit better.

i love you peri! happy thirteen!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

WHAT?!


totally blinged out shadow puppet.
(i'm engaged.)

**jeremy and i are gettin' hitched on august 21st in the salt lake temple. put in on the calendar!**
xoxox

Friday, April 10, 2009

amen.

real charity is not something you give away; it is something that you acquire and make a part of yourself. and when the virtue of charity becomes implanted in your heart, you are never the same again...

perhaps the greatest charity comes when we are kind to each other
, when we don't judge or categorize someone else, when we simply give each other the benefit of the doubt or remain quiet. charity is accepting someone's differences, weaknesses, and short-comings; having patience with someone who has let us down; or resisting the impulse to become offended...

charity is refusing to take advantage of another's weakness and being willing to forgive someone who has hurt us. charity is expecting the best of each other.
-marvin j. ashton

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

LANG x 2



stacie are geoffrey are the coolest/cutest. ever. the end.
and just when i thought they couldn't get any better...well...


lookie here.

Monday, April 6, 2009


5 more days of classes before i pack my bags and head home.
back to the sunshine.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

oh my!



i just had flashbacks from the neverending story!
i love this.

orange you glad?

dear reader,
today, on my way back to school, (waa) i put my earbuds into my ears and (feeling a little spontaneous) put my ipod on shuffle.
i was blessed with a little beirut, postcards from italy.
because i love love love the song, i turned the volume up a few (or several) notches, put it on hold (you know, to save battery power) and made my way up the hill.
feeling sunny, (unlike the weather, thanks a lot utah) i pulled out my extra large orange and began to peel it.
it was tough.
by the time i had a quarter of the peel peeled, i had orange all up in my finger nails.
every one of them.
at this point, beirut had finished serenading me and i was only halfway up the hill.
i was suddenly surrounded with a few members of faculty.
(i figured they were faculty, do to their age and attire)
WHAT shuffles onto my ipod?
while my hands were covered with orange juice/peel?
with my ipod lost in the bottom of my purse?
FERGIE
oh snap.
but seriously.
london bridge shuffled onto my ipod and i was stuck.
the volume was already at an obnoxious level- even for beirut...but fergie!? why is that crap still on my ipod?

anyway,
long story short,
i got concerned looks from the surrounding faculty who could no doubt hear stacy ferguson coming out of my ear buds...
the orange wasn't even good...
and i was late to class.
the end.

Monday, March 30, 2009

danƧa, danƧa, danƧa

dave planned a lovely date last weekend.
a brazilian dinner followed by some brazilian dancing.
it. was. just great.
thanks elder andrew, for bringing back so much fun all the way from brazil!



jeremy wilson was quick to show off his amazing dance moves...who knew!?





p.s.- it seems that the more i am with this boy, the more our outfits start to match...what the?

counterfeits: a mess of pottage

last spring, i attended a devotional on campus. the devotional was given by the acting director here at BYU, barta heiner. because there are not many people on campus during spring/summer, there were very few people in attendance. sister heiner's talk was so powerful. i have searched all over for the full text of the talk, but i cannot find it. all that is available is the mp3/video. i suggest watching it. she is lovely and inspiring, as are the things she had to say.


"if there's a rule, God put it there for a reason and before impulsivly throwing away a rule one should search deep for the reason behind the rule."

{moroni 7:33}


*while you're getting spiritually uplifted, don't forget to read elder holland's talk.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

summer oh nine

three more weeks at brigham young's university before i pack my things and return to the desert for the hottest months of the year.
thank. goodness.
i love you provo, i really do, but i am sick and tired of this pseudo-spring.
it's snowing outside.
it's march 30th and it's snowing outside.

i guess i shouldn't be too upset though...
in less than a month, i will be basking in the hot sun with my family and looking for employment.
{i cannot wait}



there are a few things i will miss this summer...






Friday, March 27, 2009

amen.

be happy in that which you do. cultivate a spirit of gladness in your homes. subdue and overcome all elements of anger, impatience, and unbecoming talk to one another.
-president gordon b. hinkley

Sunday, March 22, 2009

one down! three to go...

kelly marie is married!
thanks for letting us spend the day with you, kel!
i love you!



Wednesday, March 18, 2009

dear spring,

you're here!
and i love you...
but you're distracting me from my studies.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

march 16th




22 years ago jeremy james wilson was born.
i love this boy more than i love chocolate chip cookies and sunshine.
he makes me giggle and he pushes me to be better than i was yesterday.
yep. mmmhmm.
{i love him}
happy birthday mr. wilson

happy happy birthday noah maurice

seventeen and a half years ago, a little blond baby boy entered my world and my life has never been the same.
he's the best brother peri, chloe and i could ever ask for.

i cannot wait for you to move to utah next falllllll. it whhhill be so fun.



{i lovelovelove you noah!}

happy birthday.









Saturday, March 14, 2009

quote of the week. #2

Monday, March 9, 2009

i love it when you come to visit








you made my day
xo

Sunday, March 8, 2009

dress giveaway!

wouldn't it be exciting to win something? especially if it were this lovely...








Sunday Laundry Shirt Dress GIVEAWAY!!!!

quote of the week. #1

Saturday, March 7, 2009

dear deer,


{thanks heather, for showing me this adorable vid.}

on march 21st

kelly marie morrison will get hitched to jonny neilson





i love you kelly marie!

Thursday, March 5, 2009

www.mormon.org

where have you gone?



"just so you know......I think WHO YOU ARE is confused with WHO YOU THINK YOU SHOULD BE. WHO YOU ARE is who you are suppose to be."


for some reason, this makes perfect sense to me. thanks mom.


***dear sunshine, please come back to provo. i don't think i can make it through the rest of the semester without you.
missing you,
estee

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

color story

OREM- Between the hours of midnight and 4 a.m. on Sunday morning, the Wal-Mart Supercenter is still overflowing with customers. Men and women scuttling around the store as if they know exactly what they are looking for, but appear as though they would rather be at home in bed. There is a feeling of determination in the air as the shoppers fill their baskets with a myriad of items, ranging from produce to vacuum cleaners.

This particular Wal-Mart, located on University Parkway in Orem, Utah, always seems to be jam-packed with diverse people from all walks of life; there are mothers pleading with their crying children, senior citizens picking up their prescriptions and students looking for the cheapest groceries. In the late night/early morning the crowd is no different, they just looking exhausted.

The night crew at the supercenter is just the opposite. In the wee hours of the morning, men and women sporting bright blue polo’s pull out more inventories to stock the shelves with. Even at such an early hour, the employees seemed to be wide awake and ready for the task at hand.

One woman can even be heard singing Aretha Franklin’s “Respect” at the top of her lungs as she re-stocks the CD shelves. She is not alone in her song; walking up and down the aisles you hear other tunes being sung by her co-workers. Down the shampoo aisle someone’s mousy voice is mumbling the words to Queen’s “We Will Rock You”.

The woman at the checkout with a name tag reading “Sue” has a big grin on her face as she scans everything from frozen pizzas to contraceptives; she seems to be enjoying her time getting to know each customer.

“Oh my Lord! These are the cutest little barrettes I have ever seen!” Sue says.

Walking out to a parking lot full of cars makes finding one’s vehicle quite the challenge; and they keep coming. The birds are chirping, a sign that morning in not far off, and the Wal-Mart Supercenter is still filled with tired customers and lively employees.

Monday, March 2, 2009

movie review for 211- madagascar: escape 2 africa

Sequels are like a second date, complicated. Handled incorrectly, and they can ruin your pleasant memories from the first movie. Thankfully, the people at DreamWorks pictures did everything right with Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa. The story is richer and the animation is even more impressive than the first Madagascar movie.

Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa brings back the finest elements of Madagascar, including the familiar critters: Alex the lion, Marty the zebra, Gloria the hippo, Melman the giraffe and my personal favorite the nutty lemur King Julian. Even Mort, the adorable lemur, returns for more adventures. Building on the characters we grew to love in Madagascar, the writers have added a herd of new characters who are just as entertaining.

In fact, in many ways Madagascar: Escape 2 Africa is a better movie than Madagascar. The first movie established the personality of each of the characters so the writers were able to jump right into the story. The friendship between the four characters is stronger after having spent some time away from the comforts of their home in Central Park zoo. The old ‘home is where your heart is’ saying comes into play. And there is even a little romance featured in Madagascar 2, which is sweet to watch develop. Plus, this one’s got monkey’s demanding maternity leave and the return of the feisty old granny who kicks butt like Jet Li on steroids.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

on bad days i look at happy things

dear j. peri,


today, yesterday, the day before that, the day before that and the day bef...etc
have been a little tricky for me. tricky, as in my heart is hurting.
today i browsed your blog and it reminded me how much i love you, which reminded me how much you love me.

and it made my heart feel a little lighter.



estee


"though we live in a failing world, we were not sent here to fail."
-neil a. maxwell

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

dear family,




iloveyou.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

valen-times suplex

i despise the snow. absolutely cannot stand it. it's cold, wet and after a few days it's ugly...
so when matt and jeremy wanted to go out and play in it last week i was, of course, hesitant. but, i decided to participate because it was valentines day-a day of love- and i figured that i might be able to put my differences aside with snow miser and have a little fun...

thank you matt and jeremy for reminding me that this is not possible.




Monday, February 16, 2009

yes. yep. uh hu. that's right.

Friday, February 13, 2009

remember lot's wife


At this point, let me pause and add a lesson that applies both in your own life and also in the lives of others. There is something in us, at least in too many of us, that particularly fails to forgive and forget earlier mistakes in life—either mistakes we ourselves have made or the mistakes of others. That is not good. It is not Christian. It stands in terrible opposition to the grandeur and majesty of the Atonement of Christ. To be tied to earlier mistakes—our own or other people’s—is the worst kind of wallowing in the past from which we are called to cease and desist.
...
Let people repent. Let people grow. Believe that people can change and improve. Is that faith? Yes! Is that hope? Yes! Is it charity? Yes! Above all, it is charity, the pure love of Christ. If something is buried in the past, leave it buried.
...
Perhaps at this beginning of a new year there is no greater requirement for us than to do as the Lord Himself said He does: “Behold, he who has repented of his sins, the same is forgiven, and I, the Lord, remember them no more” (D&C 58:42).

{elder jeffrey r. holland}


Elder Holland came to campus earlier this semester and gave a wonderful devotional. It gave me the super-boost I needed for the months to come. I could not wait for BYU to put it online so that I could share it with everyone.
Please read the talk, better yet DOWNLOAD IT so you can hear his voice.


I love this gospel, I know it's true. Everyday we are challenged to be better. I am taking Elder Hollands words very seriously, this year and in the years to come.

xoxo

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

speaking of audrey tautou...

oh my goodness gracious!
last night i went to the international cinema
(i know, i sound so cultured right now...)
i don't usually attend, but now that i've gone, i'm hooked! it was so great!
the movie we saw, on the other hand...
i was SO excited to see that this film featured my favorite audrey! it looked like it would be the perfect pre-valentines day movie about love and what not...but...well...


please rent it.
rent it and get back to me.



Tuesday, February 10, 2009

amƩlie



favorite scene from amƩlie. make sure to read the subtitles.


{it's a must see.}
(edited.)

Monday, February 9, 2009

it could be worse.

i may not be great at many things...
i can't seem to prepare properly for an exam
i sometimes forget to remove my mascara
i can't budget my money...i have tried, and i have failed
i cannot please the two people who brought me into this beautiful world
for the reasons listed above and below

i can't seem to pass buy the flowers at the grocery store with out purchasing a colorful bouquet (budget?)
i cannot ignore a pile up of dishes
i have to peel myself out of my bed every morning
i give my heart away too quickly, allowing it to be broken
my testimony looks like a transverse wave
i run into things (walking, running, swimming...oh...and driving)
etc etc etc



but heck! i can bowl a 94, listen for hours to sad roommates, eat a giant bag of conversation hearts on my own, spend money i don't have, and iron my clothes while i'm wearing them!


it could be worse, right???


(maybe not...)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

when a man and a woman really love each other...

kelly's getting married guys.
it's for real.
really.

tonight i got to see the bridesmaid dresses (because i'm a bridesmaid, you see)
and good news!
they're my favorite color.
and that's my favorite thing about them.
oh kelly, i love you.


thank you for being my friend and letting me play a part in your wedding even though i look like a goon 24/6
(i think i average one cute day a week...)

xoxoxox

 

 
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Monday, February 2, 2009

it is true that these

pictures made me a little emotional...just a little.



see more {here}


my news writing class requires my to read the paper everyday.

i
love
it


we are so blessed to live in this country.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Oddity:

an odd or remarkably unusual person, thing, or event.

i love love love my mass communications class. yesterday we were discussing what makes news...
unusual events like this one. oh i love it.

a- you're adorable

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

wake up


this video
really captures the beauty in the people.





where would you wake up?

Friday, January 23, 2009

(the original) cook kids.


Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Javen Peri



this beauty is my little sister peri. what a DOLL, right!?

Saturday, January 10, 2009

for the love

in all of my time living in provo i have not once lived with any of my close friends. in fact, i have never even known any of my roommates before moving in with them. it is, as they say at honks dollar store... "always an adventure. always."

i feel like i am pretty easy going. i try very hard to get to know each girl i live with, and i make sure that i do anything i can to make them more comfortable. one might even say i am a push over...
*making late (very late) trips to circle K because certain roommates don't have cars
*spending limited time in the bathroom because i know one roommate WILL wake up 20 minutes before class expecting to be able to occupy our baƱo for at least fifteen minutes before she rushes out the door.
*offering wake up calls when alarms are "broken"
*applying nail polish to right fingers (while on important phone calls)
*listening to engagement stories, brake-up stories and every other boy story imaginable.
*giving praise when needed (and sometimes, asked for. yes, really)
*cleaning the community bathroom a couple or all weeks in a row
etc...
and what do i ask in return?
what is it that i need to be happy while living in a houseful of hormonal "women"?

just one thing. one little thing that i have maybe mentioned once or twice. (possible five or six) times.

RINSE YOUR DISH.
more specifically- DO YOUR DISHES.
when i see dirty dishes in the sink, i will do them. gladly. sure. no problem. BUT PLEASE. for the LOVE of everything that is good in this world RINSE.

and another thing...when the dishwasher is empty...and open...
use it.



that is all.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

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Thursday, December 25, 2008

christmas with the cooks

christmas at the cook home is a blast. (like whoa!)
i think everyone got everything they wished for and more! including a grey fedora for-peri love-noah. what would we do without this brother of ours to keep us up to date on the latest fashions?!???
santa left the girls superstar boogie for the wii. YES. DOUBLE YES. we are singing and dancing and dancing and singing. watch out cheetah girls!

arts and crafts on the green grass

QT!

24/7 dance party (fo real)

bff aeaeaeaeaeaeae..aeaeaeaeaeaeaeAE

we don't love long lines...don't even like'm


Monday, December 22, 2008

devaun is a white female and i love her

 
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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

you make it hard for me to love you

it snowed all day today.
under the snow, there is ice...

i got out of my car, walked around to the trunk to grab my grocery bag.
(just one bag)
($o.77 toilet paper and blueberry muffin mix)
(mmm)
i shut the trunk.
just as i started to hum a christmas song,
(hmm hmm hmm hmmhmmhmm hmm hmmmmmm)
(we wish you a merry christmas)



BAM


smack.
fell flat on my face.
owwwwwww.


i do not love the snow.
i do not love the ice.
the. end.


p.s.- THIS is the real santa clause. fo real. i'm serious. all that crap about santa in the snowy north pole is just that, crap.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

YES!

Friday, December 12, 2008

yo no sƩ




i liiike.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

school sux, i know

if you spot a goon walking around campus with a bucket, it's probably me.
i'm feeling rather sick and as i would rather not throw up on anyone, i have decided it is best if i am prepared for the worst.

finals make me my palms sweat. gross, huh?


if you spot me in the library starring into space...or crying...this is probably what's running through my head:

je ne peux parle franƧais
peter is my favorite apostle
is this desk really here? or is it all in my head?...
am i a current social problem?
i wonder if santa is going to get me that "rainbow in my room" projector...?



one week till i pack my things and head south
yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

dear santa,

this year, a few things have caught my eye...

a "rainbow in my room" projector



a pair of bizarro glasses



this lovely rug, to remind me to take a chill pill



...i think that's it.


wait wait wait



okay, that's it.

xo, estee

Thursday, December 4, 2008

indeed

Thursday, November 27, 2008

caught in the middle

home again!
i love love love arizona and everything in it,
i.e.- mi familia, kristin, QT, sunshine (in november!), palm trees, rain on hot pavement (in november!), 99.9 KEZ...etc, etc, etc.


the cook home is hopping...literally. i was greeted with much laughter and entertainment...most of which came from the youngest cook child. (per usual) chloe rose has perfected her dance moves, sarcastic comments, and manipulating techniques at the ripe old age of nine. she drives us NUTS and yet without her this family would be a boring, boring mess.

{here we are waiting for j. peri at the bus stop. can you see the palm tree out the rear window? mmmmhmmm. happy holidays!}



pee.ess.- only one day until we can all play mariah carey's "all i want for christmas is you" without ANY question as to whether or not it's too early.

merrrry christmas.
ho.ho.ho.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

hello my name is ______

as if i don't have a pile (literally...LITERALLY) of homework to catch up on.



instead, i watch things like this and listen to the clock tick...

help. i'm sinking in a smelly, sticky pile of procrastination.

Monday, November 3, 2008

VOTE

get your bottom to the polls!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

hey there ho there

tomorrow is halloween and jack and i are headed to vegas with a bus full'a kids who luhuhvve mr. mccain.
can't.wait.



i love this girl.




in other news.

i'm horrible at articulating my thoughts.


the end.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

give me a break of that kit kat bar

lately my nerves have been getting the best of me.

my palms have started sweating again.
my stomach is full of knots.
my hands shake.
i crack my knuckles.
when i think of the list of things i have to do my eyes slowly fill up with tears.


i suppose all i can do is put a grin on my face and laugh it off.


ha. ha. ....ha.


a few positives...
i'm still related to this girl-



if i get too overwhelmed, i can always watch the videos mom sent me...



Monday, October 20, 2008

willi, i read your blog...

tag, i'm it...

4 random things I love about my husband:
ha....ha.

4 jobs I've had
1. "Good afternoon, Express One Mortgage, this is Estee..."
2. Glorified Janitor VP (President being, Kristin Roberts.) THAT was a good time.
3. Stretch 'N Grow Fitness
4. "Hi! My name is Estee Cook and I'm calling on behalf of the BYU telefund..."

4 movies I have watched more than once
1. The Sound of Music
2. Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
3. Enchanted...stop judging me.
4. Pollyanna

4 TV shows I watch
1. i
2. have
3. no
4. time

4 places I have been and loved
1. Santorini, Greece
2. London, England
3. Paris, France
4. any Mexico trip with the Cook familyyy

4 of my favorite foods
1. almonds
2. birthday cake
3. cereal
4. apples

4 places I would like to visit
1. Scotland
2. Austria
3. Switzerland
4. Brazil

4 things I am looking forward to in the coming year
1. summer time
2. finishing my second year in Provo
3. Mark
4. Traveling

4 people I tag:
Peri
Dena
Jendar
Corrine

Saturday, October 18, 2008

hey. hey. hey there.

i love love love warm weather.




that's all.

Friday, October 10, 2008

the BEST

i love love love getting phone calls from these three. i love hearing about the woes of elementary school, the idiots in junior high, and the joys (ha) of highschool. i love being so closely related to three of the coolest people on this planet.
they'll be here tomorrow, i can't even wait.
i love you guyzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
ex ohhh.

noah

peri

chloe






p.s.-mr. mccain, you have my vote. please win (for the sake of my mother's health), please have a little integrity, and please please please don't die.

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

pores.

Friday, October 3, 2008

"the best thing to hold onto in life is each other." - audrey hepburn

thank you kristin for teaching me that being myself is A okay. thank you for showing me how to fall in like...over and over and over again.
thank you kelly for being the example. for being able to love someone enough to spend eternity with them.
thank you devaun for being devaun. thank you for being the most beautiful, most talented, most witty nerd i know.
thank you peri for having a good head on your shoulders. thank you for being the little sister that i am able to look up to.
thank you mom for showing me what it is to give everything i have and more. thank you for giving me opportunity and inspiration.

thank you for loving me, even though i'm a space case.

i love you. and you. and you.











Friday, September 19, 2008

dear peri

today was pretty horrible.
then i came home and read your {blog}...




i luhhhhhhuhuhve you.



xo

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

burn

is it weird that i like to burn my tongue with my hot cocoa, tea, soup...etc?
this: "wait, estee! it's hot!" is ignored.
i like the sting of the hot liquid on my tongue.

okay, it is weird.
whatever.

anyway...speaking of burns...
i got burned again, and it wasn't the swiss miss. it was a he. and "he" doesn't even know. i suppose i burned myself. but why? why do i want what i cannot have? why am i in a hurry?

patience. a virtue my Father in Heaven is helping me learn.


thanks.

Monday, September 15, 2008

move over samantha brown




i want your job.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

let's go back...

to this, and that. to then.









when things were silly and simple.









let's go back...

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

maybe.

i might be growing up.
i might know who i want to be.
my heart might have found something.

...

Monday, August 18, 2008

home again

i love being home.
here are a few reasons why:

1)

2)

3)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

McCain (& Romney?) '08



look who i found at the anime convention!
(don't judge my apperience, i woke up early for the yu-gi-oh! workshop...)

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

very clevah

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

good question.




i've been in provo for one year now. one very long year. some have said i've wasted away much of my time here, and this is very true...but i have learned much more than i ever thought i would. i am not the same person i was a year ago. i have done, seen, and felt things i never thought i would. some of them i wish i never had; but because of my experiences, i know a lot more about who i am, what i want, and where i am going. for the first time in a while, i have good feelings about my future.



we can't ever go back to the old things or try and get the "old kick" out of something or find things the way we remember them. we have them as we remember them and they are fine and wonderful and we have to go on and have other things, because the old things are nowhere except in our minds now.
hemingway, paris 1923

Saturday, August 9, 2008

thank you for calling los hermanos in provo, how can i help you?

i don't like picking up dirty dishes.
i don't like finding dirty diapers under the table.
i don't like getting my ankle caught in the door, and having to stuff paper towels in my shoe to keep the blood from seeping through.
i don't like crying at work.
i don't like riding the bike home in the dark, in the rain...

BUT

i like working at los hermanos.
i like sanitizing tables.
i like mint truffles.
i like wiping my dirty hands on my apron.

and i love working with lauren.



serving test on monday, cross your fingers.


p.s.:

Monday, August 4, 2008

dear dena,

dena. i like it when you wear zebra earrings.
dena. i like it when you giggle and say "that's so lame".
dena. i like that when i text your name, t9 writes "edna".
dena. i like that you joined the army. (i love that you left it.) (God bless America.)
dena. i like that we're roommates.
dena. i don't like it that you're moving home.
dena. i don't like that i'm moving to chathamtowne. with out you.
dena. if you have a birthday party when you're 20, i will come.



dena. i love you.
love,
estee

dear lauren,

i'm watching you pack up your things. it's very sad. please stop packing up your things.
let's go over to pamela's and demand that she let us stay here in the yellow house.

love,
estee

p.s.- can we go back to yoasis?

Friday, August 1, 2008

goodbye, my summer

in less than two weeks, i will leave this yellow house and return to gilbert for a visit before i start another semester at the Y. i am sad to see summer come to a close, but i am ready for a fresh start.

a few things I will be homesick for in the fall...




this yellow house, pamela, and the circus next door



dena, madalyn, lauren, lindsey, and tiani



ice cream sundae's for lunch and dinner



camping trips, our man camper, sharing sleeping bags, roasting things



warm days in salt lake, festivals, and bubble tea



Y hikes, hikes, sweating outside, tank tops

so long, summer 2008. you will be missed
xoxo

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

it all works out. really, it does.

it isn't as bad as you sometimes think it is. it all works out. don't worry-i say that to myself every morning. it will all work out. if you do your best, it will all work out. put your trust in God and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. the Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us if we will put our trust in Him, if we pray to Him, if we live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers.
-president gordon b. hinkley

Monday, July 28, 2008

Twenty Eighth


i have a good feeling about nineteen.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

come and go

you're leaving.
i'm still here.
i don't like here.
can i leave now?
now that you're leaving?
no.
i have to stay.
i have to stay here,
and i have to like here.
i will like here.
i like here.
i like me.
thanks.
p.s.- have fun there.

Monday, July 21, 2008

happy birthday to you




happy birthday to the woman who is responsible for:
a) creating three of the most interesting/talented/entertaining people i know
b) my love of travel, culture, and everything good
c) my blue eyes, moles, and tender heart




i LOVE you

Friday, July 18, 2008

open the gates and carpe diem

i realized when i woke up this morning, wishing that friday would go right along without me, that i am letting my life slip right through my fingers. there are so many things i can do to waste away 7/18/2008, but there is not one thing that i can do to get it back. nothing.
i am through casting an empty bucket into an empty well. this is my life. i am meant to live it, not to let it pass; and especially not to wish it to pass. our Savior died so that we all might be able to live, not just to live, but to live more abundantly. i am going to do just that.



"to change one's life: start immediately. do it flamboyantly. no exceptions."
-william james

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

click, click, click

can i go home now?

Monday, July 14, 2008

je suis dƩsolƩ

"i've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
mary angelou

Thursday, July 10, 2008

sleeping in.



Wednesday, July 9, 2008

drip drop

hello.
my tub.
is going to overflow.
drip drip drop drop.
clogggg.
thank you meg, and your long luscious locks for cloggin it all up for me.
i'm almost afraid to go to sleep...
what do i do when i wake up to a room full of water???


help!

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

we the people

independence day is right around the corner, are you ready?
let's see how you fair on {this} test...

love,
estee

just give me 10 minutes to pack.

this afternoon, as i was wasting away in my bedroom, an overwhelming need for change came over me. i began to search the web for anything...foreign. from plane tickets, to hole in the wall boutiques, you name it-i googled it. it's gotten to the point to where i literally ache to be somewhere new. a plane ticket to anywhere would be greatly appreciated. (preferably somewhere where english is language #2...#3 or #4) i am sick of this silly life i am living. i need an adventure. i can no longer find excitement in camping 20 minutes north of my own bed, swimming in a fish filled pond, or experimenting with a different ben and jerry's flavor.

hmm.


anyway,
here are a few beautiful/amazing/entertaining things that wet my pallet (if you will) this afternoon.
enjoy.

a. an adorable shop located in notting hill...(dear santa,) {pedlars}
b. i spend at least 20 minutes every week, just planning faux vacations with {STA}
c. bikes. denmark. mmmm, YES! watch the videos. {here}
d. of all the places i've traveled. {this} place is probably my favorite. the colors are fantastic. the people are wonderful.
e. don't laugh, i watched this 4 or 5 times.





so. if you're ever looking for a travel buddy...you know who to call.

Monday, June 30, 2008

SOS


i need an intervention.

lauren left for the week and i promised her i wouldn't watch another episode until she returned...
i made it about ...15 minutes. she hadn't even left provo before i was watching julie cooper fish cal out of the pool.
2 seasons to go. and then i'll be free. or depressed.
oh geez.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

plans

life is good.
thank the Lord for sunshine and friends.
this summer has been lovely, but it's lacking in a few areas...

chess matches


and library visits


{thank you, NY times, for the photos.}

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

true. love.




mr. darcy is the current man of my dreams.
sigh
if only....

Sunday, June 22, 2008

i want that.



don't tell anyone, but i want a family.

will the real __________ please stand up

this morning, as i was explaining to kristin that sometimes the ox is just in the mire. she asked "what does that mean?" i replied, "...let's look it up"

so i googled it, i dictionary.comed it, and then i lds.orged it.

HA.

{this} is what we found...

Thursday, June 19, 2008

naked toenails and curly hair

there are a few people in this world who love me for who i am.
for my curly hair.
for my toe freckle.
for my hands and light eyes.
there are a few people in this world who love me
for the way think.
for my unspoken desires.
for my love of life.
for my interest in the people around me.
so why, do i live my life for those people who like the person i pretend to be?

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

there is sunshine...

"i don't like that man. i must get to know him better."
-abraham lincoln

"the sun shines and warms and lights us and we have no curiosity to know why this is so; but we ask the reason of all evil, of pain, and hunger, and mosquitoes and silly people."
-ralph waldo emerson

"oh, my friend, it's not what they take away from you that counts. it's what you do with what you have left."
-hurbert humphrey

"life is a shipwreck but we must not forget to sing in the lifeboats."
-voltaire

"wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine."
-anthony j. d'angelo

Saturday, June 14, 2008

remit

VERB: 1. To cease trying to accomplish or continue: abandon, break off, desist, discontinue, give up, leave off, quit, relinquish, stop. Informal : swear off. Slang : lay off. Idioms: call it a day, call it quits, hang up one's fiddle, have done with, throw in the towel. See CONTINUE. 2. To put off until a later time: adjourn, defer1, delay, hold off, hold up, postpone, shelve, stay1, suspend, table, waive. Informal : wait. Idioms: put on ice. See DO. 3. To grant forgiveness to or for: condone, excuse, forgive, pardon. Idioms: forgive and forget. See FORGIVENESS. 4. To become or cause to become less active or intense: abate, bate, die (away, down, off, or out), ease (off or up), ebb, fall, fall off, lapse, let up, moderate, slacken, slack off, subside, wane.


how did i get here?

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Elder McAllister

"I love Texas it is so sweet! I love the tiny Mexicans driving their carts full of fruit and popsicles around for the little kids coming home from school. I love listening to and singing along with our 50 year old friend, James Weber, as he plays Cat Stevens songs or songs from the Beatles while singing in his fake British accent. I love sitting on the porch with Pat, listening to him tell us about all of the world mysteries he has solved using a number system he calls the Bible code, or talking to Kasey about her deep crush on all of the Osmond singers, about their hit song "The Plan" and each of their favorite colors, even! The interesting people we meet, the little miracles that we see everyday continues to strengthen my testimony of how wonderful the gospel is, how blessed we are to be able to have it and be able to live it. And share it!"


I sure miss this kid.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

for the love.

read this

and this


"how wonderful is it that nobody need wait a single moment before starting to improve the world." -anne frank

Sunday, June 8, 2008

nineteen ninty-five

what i wouldn't give to be five again...


Wednesday, June 4, 2008

love.

i like these...

baby monkey born in germany...



after the earthquake...






[pictures from NY Times, pictures of the day]

whoops.

it's almost been a year, and i still avoid looking you in the eye.
my voice cracks.
my stomach flips.

i'm nervous?


i'm pathetic.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

the science of sarcasm



click it

Dear New York Times,
Thank you for your article on the Science of Sarcasm.
Your faithful reader,
Estee Cook

Sunday, June 1, 2008

dzzzzzorm life.

life at hinkley hall is beginning to take it's tole.
i mean seriously, waking up at 2am because i have to use the restroom is bad enough, but knowing that i have to

a) get out of my bed
b) find my key (which i lose daily...)
c) leave my room, walk down the long hallway
and
d) use the community baƱo, with florescent lighting...

makes it 10 times worse.

i'm about ready to call it quits and purchase a travel toilet. you know, kind of like the elmo potty the family i babysat took on long trips, just in case little sydney andrews couldn't hold it.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

CHLOE ROSE

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHLOE!


for nine years this chica has been the constant entertainer in the cook home.
she likes: the Food Network, squash, and bike rides.
her dance moves are out of this world as are her cooking skills.
happy birthday to the smallest cook kid.


Wednesday, May 21, 2008

mid-terms

special thanks to:


and of course, the IQ oil my mom sent me last semester.

thanks for keeping me awake and borderline content while i study.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

$

My wish came true, we're leaving town.
A trip to Frisco has been planned.
Friday to Tuesday.

There's only one problem.
Adventures cost money, and my plasma isn't worth that much.

Yikes.

one adventure, please

summer 2009. all i need is a plane ticket, a backpack and a travel buddy.

any takers?





Saturday, May 17, 2008

Travel Sponser

WANTED:
Someone wealthy to sponsor my travels.
I promise to send you lots of cool things via post.
i.e.- post cards, braided jewelry, spices, photos, etc.
I'd like to start in S. America. Machu Picchu.

k, cool.
Let me know.